Remember this. When Yahusha was being beaten and whipped He never cried out or cursed those who persecuted Him! He stayed firm and even forgave them! That is what He expects from us! In the end, the reward will be worth the misery we suffer here! No doubt! Stay strong and pray for the Holy Spirit to comfort you! Remain faithful to the end and the reward will be greater than anything you could ever have on earth! My prayers are with you!
Praise the Father even when you life feels like its going to hell!