This is a poem from long ago at a time in my life when i was lost! I was on drugs & a devil worshiper studying the occult! I had long before sold my soul to the devil for vengeance on my dad! I found the more i hated him the deeper i went into darkness. Every spell or curse i put on him came back on me with more vengeance on me than he ever received! My life continued to worsen to the point that i no longer could stand to live so after this poem i took a massive overdose and i drown in my own fluids! The Drs took 3 days in icu, brought me back but i was in no way thankful! I went ballistic on my nurse and was shackled and taken to Austin State Hospital! But anyways all that aside i wrote this the night before my attempt!
Calls In The Night!!
I call into the night I look into the sky, I ask them will they save me or will this be my last goodbye. The pain is so intense the mornings never come, I’m lost in this darkness will my end ever come. I walk into the void I leave the world behind seeking only darkness a place where I can hide.
I hide inside this void where no one dares to come, did I truly save myself have I really won. The hole once dug for me was never filled in, I should have been inside it would have surely been my end. In my dreams and nightmares im buried there alive as I slowly suffocate I see the ending of my life!!
But as fate would have it I am still here to suffer in this torment haunted by my fears!!
I call into the night I look into the sky I ask them will they save me or will this be my last goodbye!!
This was who i claimed to be Aka HellraiserTheVoid! These were the spirits i believed i was possessed by!
Theses two characters are now dead to me! My name is Tobias given me by Yahuah! My God!
Tobias (Hebrew: טוֹבִיָהוּ), meaning “Goodness of Yahweh! Once an evil man, Yahuahs love turned me into a righteous & good man! I am forever grateful to Yahuah and Yahusha! Yahusha gave His life for us a sacrifice and i will spend the rest of my days trying to repay such a gift as this! My life i gave to Him for saving me!
One last note! I don’t remember the nurse or Doctors who saved me but ty so much for keeping me alive! I’m forever in your debt!